It’s always darkest before the dawn…
A bit of both worlds this time.
Today I was playing EVE Online and I got incurred another lost ship. For those who don’t know, every time you lose a ship in this game, you’ve gotta repurchase yourself another ship, whatever you’ve fitted to that ship, etc. You start from scratch, ship-wise. There is no save, no continuation from a previous point, with that ship.
So needless to say, losses have an impact in the game. And recently I’ve been managing to lose a lot. It hurts. It hurts because I fly so often, and I keep thinking that surely this means I’m getting better. I’m noticing what I can engage, what I can’t, where my ship’s weaknesses are. But all in hindsight, and I never recall it in the next fight.
Frustration rises. I felt like giving up entirely. Then Pandora goes and plays a song by Florence and the Machine, a song whose lyrics contained the words of the quote above: “…It’s always darkest before the dawn.”
It helped. A bit. Then I recalled a quote from Patrick Ness’ Monsters of Men series:
“It’s always darkest before the dawn, Todd.”
I look at him, baffled. “No, it ain’t! What kinda stupid saying is that? It’s always lightest before the dawn!”
So then, which one’s right?