I’m nearly done with the first year of my university course?
I’m 8 months old on my EVE-online character?
It felt like only yesterday I was walking into my campus fresh-faced and awestruck.
It felt only like this morning that I delved into CCP’s New Eden universe with grand aspirations.
Where has all that time gone?
Not into studying. Well then there really only is one other major aspect in my life I’d invest so much time in, I am ashamed to admit. Games.
Too much gaming, and it’s not like I’ve been productive in the games either. There have been days where I’ve sat for hours staring at my screen whilst logged in to EVE Online or League of Legends, getting no where. Other times aimlessly wandering in Minecraft and Tomb Raider. Mindlessly admiring the artwork in Bastion and Transistor. The list goes on and the productivity is sadly underwhelming. Looking back, it’s easy to tell myself I’m wasting time. It’s easy to say that credit could’ve been a distinction had I not wasted my revision week revising spaceship fitting doctrines for fleet combat over accounting principles and management strategies.
But you know what? Hindsight is too clear for our own good. I’ve been telling myself this week and week again, chiding myself for spending too much time where it shouldn’t be spent, and I do nothing about it. This is the first time I’m writing it down, but do I expect a different result? Hardly. Is it a gaming addiction? Perhaps.
If this blog represented the amount of time I played games to the amount of time I took responsibility of my life and did things outside the whole new worlds created for me by game developers where I can be the hero(ine) I could never be, then it’d probably accurate show something like a 80% game/20% life relationship, when comparing how many posts I’ve put under the Life category, and the amount I’ve got under EVE.
Could this lifestyle, though, not be a bad choice, for lack of a better term, but simply a logical adaptation to my environment? Maybe I was just born in an age where it was inevitable I would explore what the Internet could offer. My friends are on Facebook endlessly, watch YouTube obsessively, and Snapchat uncontrollably. I do the same except with forums, blogs, and games. They interact with people they know, I interact with complete strangers on the other side of the world.
Ugh. I can’t go on. More consideration about this topic will probably come… a while later, considering my recent posting history.